You have remissed your chance to get rid of the baby. You shouldn't let it grow this long inside you. I just saw a picture of a 10-week old fetus. Although it is the first time I saw that kind of picture, I can see the fetus's head and limbes clearly. You are afraid of those curses back in China, on the other hand, you rely on the abortion in China that allow killing of fully grown baby. My friend is a doctor in Shanghai. One day she told me on line in a depressed mood that she just did an abortion of a 7-month old. She was trying to pull the baby out but in stead she only pulled the head out since the baby's position was up head down. You should be alert once you stopped monthly bleeding. Giving the baby to an adorption and a chance of happy life. After all death is the end. You are also to blame for today you have to make a choice of killing to simplize your life.