Same here. Stay in US for 5 years, 3.5 years are long distance. I'm not good at handling long distance. Always very needy and clingy. This past year is much better than before. Now, with my own hobbies, my own friends, and my own life, bf/hb is not critical any more. But I don't like this feeling. I still want to have someone around that I can touch, can see, can talk with face to face. I'd like someone that could pamper me, care me whenever possible. Greedy, greedy, greedy.